Today, for those of you who dont know, is Take Your Kids to Work Day.

My para asked me yesterday if she could bring her kids in.

Sure, says i. Why dont they bring a craft, and one of your kids can teach them how to do it?

So, at the moment, there is a 10 year old rapping on my desk with a ruler, and threatening to keep everyone after school.

its beautiful, and i cant stop giggling. even though she put my name in the “bad box” for laughing. oops!

Well, I did it.

I just sent an email to the woman in charge of my grant program.

I had gone and talked to her a few weeks ago, and that was full of crying and offers to give me extra time and more help and stuff.

I walked out of there feeling..better. not great, but better.

But then, I still couldnt get any of the work done.

I couldnt go to the chats.

I couldnt look at my books.

So, today, I emailed her. I wimped out. I didnt even call her or go see her or anything. I sent an email.

I told her that i appreciated her help, but at this point, i think its best for me to drop out. I told her I would get a doctors note, if that would help defray some of the costs of paying back the grant.

I told her I was sorry.

Gah. what a week.

We are still not fully moved in, although we are close, and we HAVE to be completely out of the old apartment and have it shiny and sparkly by Saturday.

Yuck.

However, we will soon have cable and internet at the new place, and really..thats pretty much all i need today.

its the little things, you see.

Yesterday was yucky, and i left work at lunchtime, cause i felt awful. Went home and slept for three hours.

then i completed a job application and tried to remember not to panic.

for those who care, this is the job i applied for.

i have no idea if im actually qualified for it, but its in a library!

also am applying to envision, which would mean i would continue to work with people with disabilities, but in a totally different capacity.

im ok with that.

Monday and Tuesday did not go so well. Therapy was Monday, and i got all freaked out about my grant program again.

gah.